you'll be a bitch because you can.
Sometimes I ask myself, what is my biggest flaw? I can be quite harsh on myself, so you can imagine how long that self-decapitating session is going to last.
It all comes down to the same thing in the end: I care too much. I have too much faith in people. My loyalty to my loved ones can only be compared to a dog's. Why can't I just be a damn cat? Only caring about myself? It would be so much easier. So much simpler.
And yet I keep caring, no matter what 'bad' thing these people do. I think Lisa Kudrow said it best when she was asked to describe Jennifer Aniston. She said:
"Even if you were to say you'd accidentally killed someone, she'd reply 'Honey, it's not your fault.' That's loyalty, her unconditional support and love."
I think I can safely put myself under that description. Sheep, meet farmer. Follow him. I feel really stupid sometimes for caring this much, for people who sometimes don't even deserve it in the first place! It's driving me absolutely nuts.
Anyway. What if a friend did something out of the norm and just ended up disappointing you? Dan ujung2nya lo mikir, kenapa sih dia mesti melakukan hal itu? You just don't understand and then you can't help but be judgmental and again, disappointed.
But then I think, hang on. Let's go back a little bit: who the hell are you to judge people like that? Do you even have any right to judge them? Oh, yeah, like you're the best person ever to roam the earth. GET OVER YOURSELF. You know? I feel like kicking myself sometimes.
Or, you know, just loosen up and not be such a high maintenance tight ass.
Fuck.
It all comes down to the same thing in the end: I care too much. I have too much faith in people. My loyalty to my loved ones can only be compared to a dog's. Why can't I just be a damn cat? Only caring about myself? It would be so much easier. So much simpler.
And yet I keep caring, no matter what 'bad' thing these people do. I think Lisa Kudrow said it best when she was asked to describe Jennifer Aniston. She said:
"Even if you were to say you'd accidentally killed someone, she'd reply 'Honey, it's not your fault.' That's loyalty, her unconditional support and love."
I think I can safely put myself under that description. Sheep, meet farmer. Follow him. I feel really stupid sometimes for caring this much, for people who sometimes don't even deserve it in the first place! It's driving me absolutely nuts.
Anyway. What if a friend did something out of the norm and just ended up disappointing you? Dan ujung2nya lo mikir, kenapa sih dia mesti melakukan hal itu? You just don't understand and then you can't help but be judgmental and again, disappointed.
But then I think, hang on. Let's go back a little bit: who the hell are you to judge people like that? Do you even have any right to judge them? Oh, yeah, like you're the best person ever to roam the earth. GET OVER YOURSELF. You know? I feel like kicking myself sometimes.
Or, you know, just loosen up and not be such a high maintenance tight ass.
Fuck.
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