back in simpler
Back in simpler days, when telephones hadn't been invented; when words like emails, Facebook, Twitter, PING!! meant absolutely nothing, when all you can rely on to know how your other half is doing halfway around the world is a letter... I wonder if then, us humans actually got it right.
From a relationship standpoint (doesn't have to be romantic, can be platonic), sure, there are disadvantages: you won't know straightaway if he/she is safe and sound after you hear about this earthquake or that train accident. You probably want to kill yourself with anxiety, wondering if he/she is having a scandalous affair with this officer or that businessman. But then again, people in those days were already all so scandalous, so it probably wasn't a big deal whether you cheated on your partner or not. Ah, this is one of those moments where I truly appreciate the saying: "ignorance is bliss."
Fast forward a few centuries, and here we are. Thanks to our human brain, we all know everything about each other, while still remaining completely in the dark. No matter how many psychiatrists or so-called people specialists and whatsits try to dissect the complexity of human behavior and personality - they can never, ever get it completely right. I'll give you an example. Two people in a relationship, claiming they make each other the happiest they've ever been. And it's true, and they mean every word they say. Until of course, like in every relationship, they stumble on little rocks. Stumble and fall. Until one day, they realize, they'd like to get up on their own, without the other's hand to help them up.
If they were living in the past, those few months of agony when the communication stops and they don't reach out for each other in order to heal, to take a break and so on and so forth - well, as much as it hurts, I think it must be easier to move along. These days? Not so much. Not when a few months after, you're still trying to mend that broken heart. Not when you have to grit your teeth seeing his photos all over your news feed on Facebook, holding that certain person you'd rather not see him with. Not when everything he says and everything he doesn't say hurts and makes you happy at the same time. Now, do you think psychologists can explain why humans act the way they do?
If by any chance, you're reading this, I'm just gonna say:
"Parade of girls, huh? Classy. Thank you for hurting me again and again. I wish you wouldn't. I really hope you wouldn't. Even after all this time, although I do understand what I did wrong, and I've apologized again and again for my mistakes... I don't see you doing the same. Mark my words, one day... You will miss me. Not in a "oh-I-remember-this-girl-I-wonder-how-she's-doing" way, but in a "fuck-I-miss-her-so-bad" way."
I'm not seeking revenge. I'm just very angry at you right now.
From a relationship standpoint (doesn't have to be romantic, can be platonic), sure, there are disadvantages: you won't know straightaway if he/she is safe and sound after you hear about this earthquake or that train accident. You probably want to kill yourself with anxiety, wondering if he/she is having a scandalous affair with this officer or that businessman. But then again, people in those days were already all so scandalous, so it probably wasn't a big deal whether you cheated on your partner or not. Ah, this is one of those moments where I truly appreciate the saying: "ignorance is bliss."
Fast forward a few centuries, and here we are. Thanks to our human brain, we all know everything about each other, while still remaining completely in the dark. No matter how many psychiatrists or so-called people specialists and whatsits try to dissect the complexity of human behavior and personality - they can never, ever get it completely right. I'll give you an example. Two people in a relationship, claiming they make each other the happiest they've ever been. And it's true, and they mean every word they say. Until of course, like in every relationship, they stumble on little rocks. Stumble and fall. Until one day, they realize, they'd like to get up on their own, without the other's hand to help them up.
If they were living in the past, those few months of agony when the communication stops and they don't reach out for each other in order to heal, to take a break and so on and so forth - well, as much as it hurts, I think it must be easier to move along. These days? Not so much. Not when a few months after, you're still trying to mend that broken heart. Not when you have to grit your teeth seeing his photos all over your news feed on Facebook, holding that certain person you'd rather not see him with. Not when everything he says and everything he doesn't say hurts and makes you happy at the same time. Now, do you think psychologists can explain why humans act the way they do?
If by any chance, you're reading this, I'm just gonna say:
"Parade of girls, huh? Classy. Thank you for hurting me again and again. I wish you wouldn't. I really hope you wouldn't. Even after all this time, although I do understand what I did wrong, and I've apologized again and again for my mistakes... I don't see you doing the same. Mark my words, one day... You will miss me. Not in a "oh-I-remember-this-girl-I-wonder-how-she's-doing" way, but in a "fuck-I-miss-her-so-bad" way."
I'm not seeking revenge. I'm just very angry at you right now.
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