you're strawberry bubblegum.

I feel that, as someone who likes to write, you have to first and foremost be brave. How could you not? Whether you're striving to be a novelist or just writing meaningless entries on your blog, you are pouring your heart out. Unleashing your thoughts and imaginations to the world can be quite a scary thing. Questions will arise, such as: "What if it's awful?" or "What if people think it's awful?" Ah. In the end, we all crave acceptance in life. Well, this is me. I write things and most of them are personal. Yes. In the age of digital media and internet threatening your privacy. You must think I'm a smart cookie. But then again I think, who the hell even cares about my personal life here on the world wide web? Unless I'm some kind of public figure, people have no business with what I do and how I feel on a day-to-day basis. So, until then... yep, I'm pretty sure I'll keep talking about my feelings, deal with it.

My main problem when I write something is my full-on ADD. I get distracted so easily, that whatever I intended to write about quickly veers off course and turns into something else. For example: when I first started to write this post, I actually had a topic in mind, and it includes mermaids. Somehow, this turns into some sort of... Writing for Dummies or Writing 101. I had it all figured out: mermaids, Atlantis, Titanic... that sort of thing, because you see, I am very much into all those ~mysterious stuff. Guess that'll have to wait. Anyway, back to writing: these days, you'll be hard pressed to find anyone who still writes the conventional way, you know, notebook and pen. I carry those two things on me at all times either way, but sigh, what can you do, technology makes it easier (and makes you lazier) with the presence of computer and keyboard. I type everything I write now, apart from the occasional diary entries (yes, I still own a diary, shut up).

With so many outlets for me to write, one could say I have some sort of emotional overflow threatening to damage me if it doesn't get transformed into words. It's true that there is something magical and therapeutic in writing. Just like some people would use music, or any other creative outlet for them to let everything out, I use words. No offense to my mother tongue, but I prefer conveying all these ~feelings in English, even though I have no problem in doing so in Bahasa. It's just that the English language is much richer in vocabulary, there are many adjectives to choose to describe things - so it seems more natural for me to express myself that way.

Truth be told, you know what would be an amazing dream for me to realize? To publish novels in both languages. That would be awesome.

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