a new day has come.

Hello! How fitting is it that my first post of the year also happens to be on Lunar New Year? I'll think of it as a good omen, especially since people have said this Year of the Goat is supposed to be a lucky one.

In terms of what's been going on in my life, well... still hustlin', you know, another day another rupiah. Work is fine, except that I feel like it's following me around all day, all night. I do not only do the work, but also think about it HARD all day, all night. Even during weekends. Even when I try to distract myself by reading books or catching up on my TV shows or just wasting time on Pinterest. I realize it's been especially true these last few months, it's like I'm a workaholic or something. Actually scratch that, a workaholic is someone who can't stop working. I can, it's just that I can't switch off my work-related thoughts when needed. It's giving me splitting headaches. I never thought I could finally define what a headache is.

I worry a lot, in case you didn't notice. I worry I can't get my assignments done on time or as well as the others. I get a small satisfaction whenever I can tick off my a number on my to-do list. I don't look for praise, but I will feel proud of myself whenever I have a productive day. I guess that makes me competitive in a way, but the difference is I'm not extra loud about it. Anyway - I don't know, I hope I can be less uptight about work. It's work, it's supposed to motivate me, not bringing me down.

Otherwise, other areas of life have been good. Family, friends, boyfriend... good relationships with all of them, and I don't intend for that to change. Let my worries about work and financial stuff be the only things I worry about and NOT added drama in my relationships (like, ahem, in the past).

ALRIGHTY THEN, I'M OFF DOING SOME MORE RESEARCH... FOR WORK.

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