editors = no mistakes!

Hi.

*wipes dust off the screen*

It has certainly been a long time since I've last published a post here, but just so you know – meaning, of course, anyone who might have stumbled across this blog post by pure coincidence or out of boredom – I do find myself coming back here time and time again. Just to see parts of myself and pinpoint the stages I was in when writing these silly, but mostly heartfelt, posts.

Quick updates: got a new job as editor at a pretty successful start-up since about four months ago and I couldn't be more overwhelmed with everything if I tried. I feel like this job makes me question my capabilities DAILY. I have a lot of frustrations when it comes to doing this job because I feel like a fish out of the water, all. the. fucking. time. Not only it is very, very demanding, what with all those tools and softwares and fancy jargons that I struggle to understand, but apparently editors are allowed ZERO MISTAKES in this business. Oy vey.

In a world where you are judged based on how 'outspoken' you are, how much of a 'hard worker' you are by working well into the night and during weekends, and how quickly you respond to an email/chat/task inquiry; well, I... find it hard to keep up, sometimes. Most of the time. Don't get me wrong, I actually get it, you know? It's the digital age. Everything needs to be done and answered to instantly and in such a perfect way, too. God forbid there are any mistakes.

What's worse is that it makes me feel inhuman sometimes: we try to become better communicators but spend our hours crouched in front of a screen, tapping away. Maybe I'm just not as open to challenges as I initially thought. Sure, sometimes it's very exciting and I really do feel like I'm learning a lot, but most of the time I feel tired.

However, I've made a pact with myself and this is one I will not break for quite some time. I'm staying here for a reason. No matter how much I might hate it, I am not allowed to quit. Not yet, not until I've achieved my own personal goals.

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